Kumakalakalabukab…

WHY?

I have asked you a lot of times, when you find a new one, just let me know… as I won’t get hurt but happy. Because I am no longer the same woman you used to love. Because I know, when we finally see each other again, there is a hundred percent chance that I will ask for freedom. I just can’t do it over an internet or telephone conversation. Because when I asked you once, you have said that it is better for you to jump off the ship. I don’t want this.

But WHY?

Shortly after your vacation, you had a new one. Of course, I don’t have any idea. As I trust your declaration of love. But you made a mistake of entrusting me your mail account. To clean it up for you… as it open gates to reality.

Have you been truthful, I probably won’t feel this pain. But the truth of my discovery only put lemon juice to my just sliced up wound. Why? You just called me a few days ago to tell me you missed me… you didn’t even forget to greet me on my birthday… then you asked me to clean up your mail account. Is this your reason? So I may found out?

But as promised, I will still be your friend. I hope I can. After your lies… I hope I can…