Happy New Year!

New Year, new challenges we have to face.  Seems similar at times but we have to work hard in each day to survive.

We have different struggles to face as we venture on our everyday journey.  There could be times that we jump with glee or feel like floating but there could also be times that we succumb to darkness and obscurity.  As we fall in the pit of blackness or leap with joy and ecstasy.  Always remember we have friends and loved ones who are always with us supporting and guiding us in this journey.  And most of all we have God who knows and see our true worth above anyone else.

To all of you who had been a good friend of mine in this world known as blogosphere.  Thank you for the past year we shared.  And looking forward for a more exciting year for all of us.  La Bonne Anne!!!

Caregiver

Napanood ko ang Caregiver movie ni Ms. Sharon Cuneta a couple of months ago… and no, hindi sa big screen kundi sa uploaded movie sa internet.  Actually, si kuya ang nakahanap ng movie na un… medyo malabo ang kopya pero ok na din… so far, naintindihan naman ang kabuuan ng kuwento.

Reaksyon?!  Hindi ko alam… magkaibang magkatugma ang opinyon namin ni utol.  Nakaramdam ako ng sama ng loob dahil sa katapusan nasira ang pamilya ng pangunahing tauhan dahil pinili ng kanyang asawa na bumalik ng bansa.  Wari ba ay nakaramdam ako ng galit sa aking dibdib dahil sa pangyayaring ito.  Na dahil lang nakaalis ng bansa at nakatikim ng buhay sa bansang banyaga ay di na ninais pang bumalik sa bansang pinagmulan at ipinagpalit ang pamilya.  Subalit kapag iniisip ko naman ang katayuan ng pangunahing tauhan bilang babae, ang kanyang personalidad na tuluyang maglalaho kung susunod siya sa kanyang asawang may maling prinsipyo.  Na inayawan ang trabaho dahil di makuha ang gusto.  Sabi ko naman sa aking sarili ay buti nga sa iyo, marapat nga lang na iwan ka ng iyong asawa.

Sa puntong iyon di kami nagkasundo ni utol.  Dahil para sa kanya, dapat pa ding sumunod ang babae sa lalaki, dahil mag-asawa sila.  Paumanhin sa masasagasaan ng aking opinyon… sapagkat old school  para sa akin ang susunod na lang palagi ang babae sa kagustuhan ng kanyang asawa.  Dahil kung magkakagayon, mawawalan na ng sariling identidad ang isang babae.  Ano ba yun?  Matapos niyang i-give-up ang kanyang career bilang guro para lamang sumunod sa kanyang asawa at maging caregiver… muli siyang pababalikin ng bansa, kung kailan natutuhan na niyang lunukin ang hirap ng pagiging isang caregiver?  Tama lang naman sigurong minsan na niyang sinunod ang kagustuhan ng kanyang asawa di ba?

Haaayyyy… opinion are clashing in my mind… ewan ko ba?

You see, I thought this movie will have a great impact in my life.  For those who don’t know, I am a caregiver myself.  But unlike the lead character in the movie, I am not working in a nursing home  but on one particular house.  I had the desire to watch the movie to see how real it could be and when I finally saw it, I can’t accept the reality that it shows.

I am a caregiver.  Being which, I have a caregiver friends as well.  Us are the real story of what happen into a caregivers life, of what’s going on in our head, in our heart and in our mind… Maybe from time to time, when theres a chance… as when the exhausted body seeks a restful day and a weary heart aspire for someone to listen, to understand, maybe by then I’ll share bits and pieces of memories of our experiences.  Of the desires of our hearts.  Of our ups and down. 

Or maybe, of my own…

zzzzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZ…

Have no entry for quite sometime now… been busy living a life!  Trying to enjoy every minute in life’s journey.  Meeting and mingling with people.  Trying to make changes toward goodness.  Being crazy!  Falling in and out of love.  Doing random flipped stuff.

Past weeks had been too busy and tiring.  Almost forgot the true meaning of living a life if not for friends who were a constant reminder of life’s beauty.  Who, just like me, are fighting their way to survive the life we opt from being away from home.  Living life freely and independently.  With our own issues and anxieties, we gather together to unload the burden if not to be around each other.

ZZZZZZZzzzzz… this is such a crazy life, with lousy decisions I am making… where am I heading?  Argh!  C’est la vie!

Random Thoughts

Been away for almost two years now.  With a rare communication with my friends back home.  This month is quite a senti month for me, where the thoughts of friendship is nagging me.  On who did I remember and who did I forget.

August 7 is my bestfriends’ birthday.  I just thought of giving him a phone call on the day following his birthday but he was not home.   Instead, it was his Dad who get my call.  I’m sad that he didn’t remember me.  Oh well, that’s what months of absence made.  I talked with my bestfriends’ brother afterwards since his Mom was in the flea market, too.  It pains me to know that there are people who just walked in and out of each other’s life and that the other won’t remember them at all.  But it’s nice to talk about old times. 

On my birthday, I phoned my other bestfriend.  Somehow, my soul sister… who understands me better than anybody else.  So bad, she was not home but running some errand.  I am delighted to talk to her Mom.  Referring me as a godmother of my friends’ child, for which I am not.  (my friend has a pretty good reason why not…)  Nanay (as I used to call her)  asked me to call after an hour but I wasn’t able to.

I did give her another call last night.  My friend was still sleeping and the lady who answered the phone seems hesitant on waking her up.  But I told her its gonna be okay.  How lovely it had been just to hear her voice at the end of the line.  Seems like it was back then while she was in her home and I was with mine.  Talking about things and stuff.  She even apologized for not having any news to tell about our fellow classmates but I told her its okay.  That if I only want news about others, then I could give a call to our Bee…  who knows almost anything about everything even until now.

One phone card even two was not enough to talked with her… seems like every second, we come up into something to talk about.  So we agreed to chat on weekend, a cheaper way to communicate and I hope we will be able to do that despite her busy schedule.

I missed my friend, I missed our home.  I missed everything that reminds me of what I left back home… haaaay!!!  Time flies, for all I know, tomorrow will be my flight back to where I belong… :)

 

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Let me see the rainbow in your eyes
And taste the honey in your smile
Let me be the one to show you love
The splendid creation around.

Things didn’t come to what you have planned
You are depressed and not so sound
The earth’s weight seems to be on your shoulder
Oh please let me be the one to carry it over.

Hammered! Hammered! Hammered!

Self turn 27 today.

Self told everybody that she’s going to hybernate on this day but she did not.  After attending mass, self had lunch with her friends.

Self had a party the previous night. 

Earlier that day though, she was upset.  Things that she planned are happening out of her control and self felt bad.

To control her emotions, she started cooking the spaghetti sauce she promised to bring at the party.  They missed Filipino Style spaghetti sauce and self gave all her best to make it somehow good.  Afterwards, she went to the store to buy the ingredients for her kaldereta.  It was the first time she’ll cook the said dish and she was praying hard that friends will like it.

Things went out well at her apartment.   Self was by herself on this special occassion, no family was with her but then, self tried her best to make this day a happy one with friends she love and respect most.

Self burn her one week salary for this party.  Thanks to her friend who hook her up to alcohol and they were able to buy good one with cheap prices.  They had Jose Cuervo tequila, Absolut vodka, Remy Martin cognac and Corona beers.  Another friend bought a Chivas Regal whisky which were no longer opened for all were hammered.  For someone who always says never mixed liquor with beer, self is the number one violator that night.

Before the drinking session, things run smoothly among them.  Having all invited friends come.  Even the gate crashers enjoyed the party.  Self was so happy indeed except for another thing that pisses her-off.

Self felt important today, no one has to object on her.  She’s so proud!  Self requested from a friend her special dessert.  She love this dessert so much that she asked her to make one that she can take home.  Everyone living in that house knows that they can not touch this dessert.  Anyway, self’s friend made two, so one is for the party, the other is for her alone.

After everyone ate… one of self’s friend has to go home and she and other two friends accompany him to his car.  Afterwards, self with her friends had their picture taken on the driveway going back to the backyard were they hold the party.  Finally, when they were back, she saw her special dessert out with the guest devoured by someone who were specifically informed that the dessert was to go home with her.  Someone offered the special dessert to her guest, the gate crasher.  Oh well, self have nothing against the gate crasher… it is just that someone is too nosy that self and friends don’t really like her and what she was doing is really irritating.

In the end, self had to ask friend to take the quarter of the special dessert and keep it, the other quarter to another guest who like this dessert a lot, too.  And the remaining to be kept in the table.

Self knows its just a dessert so why self gone on a big fuzz against it.  But it was actually because she was informed about the special dessert.  Who gave her the right to offer it without asking self first?  Whereas, self don’t touch anything that belongs to her. 

Self was so upset that she started the drinking session early.  So upset when she don’t find enough limes/lemon for the tequila and corona that self ran alone on the store to buy some.  Self need air or she’ll burst on the party.  So upset that self let herself loose.  Every people in the party who knows her as someone so serious where probably shocked especially the Russian boyfriend of friend whom self keep on talking with.

Self was so loud!!! Friends were asking her to stop drinking but self told them to let her be.  As the day was special.  For self, it is a night of madness, craziness and stupidity.  Self was so hammered that she probably can no longer walk without the support of friend.  As self was so thankful to friend for accompanying her to go home and tend her as she go to sleep.

Overall, self was so Happy.  The party was a hell lot of fun!!! 

 

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The party won’t be a success without the help and support of friends.  A very special thanks…

  • EMILY – for making the Crispy pata, rumaki, fried chicken and pasta for the spaghetti.
  • SHIELA – for adding barbeques (beef and pork)
  • JENNY – thank you so much for my very special dessert and for the vodka also for hooking me up with good drinks in cheap amount.
  • JENNIFER – for taking the day-off just to be with me early and hook us up with a whisky
  • AU & WAX – for the flowers… i love them, they’re so beautiful and for the “dinuguan” (everybody’s favorite dish)
  • for the people who lives on the apartment…  SHENG, EM, FER… I love you guys, thank you for accomodating my party. 
  • KHALID – for driving me to Appleton not knowing that its my birthday and being so nice.
  • and, for the rest of the guest… Ruslan, Ulukbek, Salim, Cherry, Myra, Liza and son EZ, Jan… you’re presence make this day special.  Regardless of anything else… thank you!

Fortune Cookie

Kagabi, naisipan namin ni Utol na maglakad lakad sa labas at kung san na lang mapiling kumain ng hapunan. Ito ay matapos na maghapong manood ng anime… salitang pagdownload ng Claymore at Hunter X Hunter. Kaya naman, kinuha lamang namin ang aming jacket at lumabas na ng bahay.

Habang naglalakad lakad, siempre nagkukuwentuhan kami tungkol sa pangyayari sa buhay. Hanggang magtungo sa paksang ito…

UTOL: Tol, minsan ba inisip mo, pinangarap o pinaginipang makarating sa banyagang bansang ito?
AKO: Ako, sa totoo lang hindi. Di ko nga alam kung bakit nakarating ako dito eh. Ang alam kong super sa pangangarap na makarating ung pinsan nating si Elle, pero until now nasa Pinas pa din. Naunahan ko pang makaalis, pero good na din na pparito na siya sa June.
UTOL: Oo nga eh. Kahit nga ako di ko alam na makarating ako dito. Alam mo naman na bobo ako…
AKO: Heh! Magtigil ka nga, walang taong bobo noh?!
UTOL: Anyway, un na nga… tapos eto ako, andito. Kung saan saan na din nakarating…
AKO: Oo nga eh, nakakatuwa… haay naku!

Kung saan saan pa napunta ang aming usapan hanggang sa pag usapan namin kung ano naman ang aming kakainin para sa hapunan. I was craving for Stir-Fried Noodles… tapos si Utol gusto daw i-try ung grilled pork & beef sa ‘Paris Pho’, isang restaurant na nagse-serve ng Thailand/Chinese foods. Kaya ganun na nga… doon na kami pumasok upang kumain. Idinagdag ko lang sa order ang spring roll.

Matapos mabusog sa aming hapunan na aming pinaghatian upang matikman namin pareho ang order ng bawat isa at bayaran ang kabuuang halaga na aming nakain kasama ang tip ay lumabas na kami ng nasabing restaurant tangan ang fortune cookie na ibinigay matapos akong magbayad. Habang naglalakad kami ay kinain namin ang fortune cookie na ibinigay. Ng maya-maya ay di ko napigilan ang aking pagtawa.

UTOL: Ano ba? Para kang loka, tawa ka ng tawa!
AKO: Paano naman kasi nakakatawa itong nakasulat dito sa ‘fortune cookie’ ko. Ano ba sau?
UTOL: Maya, hindi pa ubos ang cookie ko eh..
AKO: Ok. Basta pagkatapos, pabasa ako ah.
UTOL: Oo nga.

Ilang sandali pa at tawa na ng tawa si Utol, tawang di ko alam kung nakakaloko o ano ba? Kaya naman nagpalitan na kami ng mga papel na nagmula sa fortune cookie. At muli, tawa ako ng mabasa ko na ang kaniyang ‘fortune’. Habang tumatawa din siya ng tungkol sa ‘fortune’ ko.

FORTUNE NI KUYA: You will travel far and wide for both pleasure and business.
FORTUNE KO : You will soon travel abroad.

Yan ang dahilan kung bakit kami tawa ng tawa, dahil ilang sandali bago kami kumain ay pinag uusapan namin ang parehong paksa. At ang paksang ito ay pawang naganap na kaya ano pa nga ba ang saysay ng nakalimbag sa papel na ito?

Miss kita… ako ba miss mo din?

The celebrant
Happy Birthday Eighjey…. :D

Waaaah!!! Anong petsa na ba?  Ika-29 na ng Abril?  Napakabilis talaga ng panahon… ngayon ay 21 na siya…

Noon, tuwing darating ang petsang ito, super excited na kami… ciempre pa, this is the time of the year para maligo sa dagat ng buong pamilya… waaah!!! how I missed them…

Para sa sis ko… Happy Happy Birthday… I love you and I miss you so much!

Hala, mag emo ba daw?  Nweis, I am always proud of your achievement in life… wushu…

Happy Happy Birthday!
Happy Happy Birthday!
Happy Happy Birthday!

Argh!  I missed two of your birthday celebrations… bawi na lang next time…

Hehehe!!! Need talagang i-post ang greetings?!?!?!


Vane & Eighjey

 

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